Holy shit. I ... just can't express how mad I am right now.
First I got a psp and a game for it, thats ok, right?
Then, apperantly, I need a fucking memory card. Where the shit do I get one.. and they cost 80 bucks each, what a rip off, the thing alone costs like, fucking 200 bucks plus a game for 40.
And you know why I have to get it? Because my dad said that all the photos on the current 2GB memory card are fucking lost.. I checked on my psp, on the computer, and on the camera itself, all the pictures are there, so why be a selfish bitch?

Now, I've been pissed for seriously like, weeks over one person.
Her name's Sharon, she thinks she the absolute perfect friend and person, but actually, she is an annoying brat who pokes her nose in other's buisness.
.. She thinks she can win me over my other friends, who are made of absolute win and have their own minds, unlike obviously, her.
She randomly comes in, thinks she's all that, and pretends to like everything I like.
Last week, I was fangirling Madonna, as always, and she comes into the classroom when me and my friend and teacher were in there, and she's like: "I love Madonna's 4 Minutes song" and because I always say "Madonna~ You gotta get it now, hop", she says that line, as if she even knows the lyrics. Then, later on that day, she comes to me and says: "You know, I was a Madonna fan for 5 years, then I stopped for a year or two, but now you got me back to being a Madonna fan!"
First of all, why stop being a Madonna fan for two years? Then, I asked her what's your favourite Madonna album? She said that she can't remember all 27 of them... where the fuck did she get 27, its 38, you fucking dumbass. At the start of the year, she was sayin' she hated Madonna. Well, I don't see that right now, she's her dorkiest "biggest" fan.
Now she is getting her hair done like mine. Yes, ITS THAT FREAKING BAD. Someone, how do you deal with these kind of fucking dumbasses? Seriously, 'cause I have absolutly no idea.
Today, I said that I love Cher, when I actually hate her guts, then me and my friend were randomly fangirling Cher, when we know nothing about her, and at the end my friend asked her: "do you like Cher, Sharon?"
And she said:
"Yes, I guess so." Where as at the start, she was making fun of me, once again.

So seriously, come off it, what the crap do I do to get rid of her, I think she is my stalker or something, I'm scared to open my eyes as I might find her behind my door. This is getting out of control.

So, I've been sitting here for a long while, waiting for the clock to strike 12... and now I'm possibly the happiest person in the world.

If I didn't have school, I would go to the mall right now and stand infront of HMV, I'm so scared the cd might be sold out by the time I get to it in lunch time >w<. 

I really want this album, seriously, I've been going absolutly nuts, and you get a free poster when you buy it ~ Goodness sake, this is one awesome day, I hope. I need to study for my science test, but I'm too caught up with Madge. So yeah :]

Hello, to anyone who is reading this post, although I don't think anyone does anyways. x] I'm that weird, huh?

Anyways, today with my grade, we went to the International Film Festival.
It was.. spectacular! Seriously, it was amazing, even if the movies were not in English.
So, we watched this one movie called The Substitute or Vikar, in Danish.
I thought it was really awesome, it was kinda scary, people were screaming while I was laughing, I'm just that strange.
I don't know for what reason exactly, but me and my friend wanted to know the real name of the woman who played the substitute, so we waited for the credits.
=/ Her real name is Paprika Steen, and when we saw that, we started laughing our arses off. 
My friend was all: "Hey, save her name! We'll google her when we get back"; and so I did. chiixhideki thinks I'm seriously nuts over her for absolutly no reason, and I agree. Paprika, just simply makes me lol. chiixhideki said that she was very beautiful, so I decided to post a picture as well: Give it up for Paprika Steen everyone! So yeah, here I am, going all hyper crazy over a Danish actress that makes me rofl.
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Okkie. So, I wonder who watch Idol Gives Back, other than me.
Psh, I did, cause like, seriously... its *amazing*

I have never cried as much in my whole life as I did in those 2 and a half hours, today.

The whole thing was amazing, but.. the thing that captured me totally was Simon's clip to visit the family and what he said afterwards. 
Seriously, just hearing his voice there made me bawl like crazy [[yess, I am an overly-obsessive fangirl, mind me ~]]. 
But he was like, so gentle and all and so freaking nice. It just simply melted my heart. I was so captivated in the moment.

Ohh.
And, Annie Lennox made me cry like a baby. 
Her clip was so sad too, and it just shows how in pain these people are, and she broke down at the end of the clip and it was so utterly sad, I have no other words to describe it. 

And, I think that Miley's second performace was totally out of line, like, too much of Miley for a day. Was it me, or was she totally showing off when they introduced her? Even like, Simon doesn't show off as much, if I was her and watched it over, I would be embarassed, but that's only me, so whatever.

ok, so this might sound very stupid;
Today in school, we read a poem.
While I usually doze off or something during language, the poem caught my eye, and it was amazing.
It almost made me cry, I have to admit.
It was so beautiful, and it reminded me so much of the current relationship | feelings that were exposed between Alucard and Integra from Hellsing.
A-anyways, I decided to post the poem here, just to see what other people think about it or whatever. 


Monsoon Moments
by: Nazir Kazmi [1925-72]

Once more the monsoon winds blow and I remember you,
once more the leafy anklets chime and I remember you.

All day I was lost in the maze of worldly affairs.
Now when the sun climbs down the walls, I remember you.

Once more the crow calls in the empty courtyard at home,
once more the drops of nectar fall - and I remember you.

Once more the herons cry in an ocean of green grass,
the season of yellow blooms has come - and I remember you.

At first I wept aloud, and then began to laugh.
Thunder rolls and lightning flashes - and I remember you.



So, is it just me and my weirdness that think that this poem describes what Integra might be thinking on these latest chapters?

ok, so you might be wondering why the crap am I making an entry on March the 29th|2008@12 am, right?
Well, here's the reason:

As of right now, Madonna's new album, Hard Candy is being released in exactly one month.

A month to go, heard that, Madge fans?

So, I decided to write a .. fanfiction for Hellsing. 
Here it is:

Here For You

Song: Here For You by Ozzy Osbourne

I remember all the good times
Sometimes I'd wonder would it last
I used to dream about the future
But now the future is the past

Integra Fairbrook Wingates Hellsing, the Hellsing Leader, Sir Integra… the one person that died everyday for her country, the one person that lost her own father at a young age and got over it, was in despair. The day that she thought never would come, hit her in the face like a ton of bricks.

Reality was such a disgusting, horrible bitch.

I don't wanna live in yesterday
Cross my heart until I die
Don't wanna know just what tomorrow may bring
Because today has just begun
No matter whatever else I've done
I'm here for you
I'm here for you

Why, you might ask, was she in despair? Well, the answer is plain and simple. Her world just crumbled down all over again. For her, it was all over. Walter was gone, brainwashed, and probably dead by now. The butler that she knew for so long, her dear friend, was lost. But no, that wasn’t it, no no no, that wasn’t nearly the end of it.

So now I sit here and I wonder
What ever happened to my friends?
Too many bought a one way ticket
But I'll be with you 'til the end

The person that she loved, cherished, respected, counted on, commanded, grown attached and attracted to, had just disappeared. Forever. There was no way of him coming back now. Her life was a total malfunction, she did not meet up to what her father wanted her to achieve. She did not think she was worthy of her name.

I don't wanna live in yesterday
Cross my heart until I die
Don't wanna know just what tomorrow may bring
Because today has just begun
No matter whatever else I've done
I'm here for you

“DON’T DISAPPEAR!” She yelled. “DON’T CLOSE YOUR EYES! IT’S AN ORDER!” She begged him. But none of that helped. None of that mattered, because it was all over. She was fuming, furious, and livid with the Major. THAT, had done it for her. THAT, was the last straw. She was going to kill him, one way or another. Nothing mattered anymore, but she WILL be there for Alucard, she WILL always love him, she will never forget him. She will get revenge. For the ones she lost. For her loved ones. For innocent people, who did nothing wrong, yet died because this asshole idiot decided he just wanted a war, for fun, how so utterly pathetic. For her country and Queen. For Seras. For Walter. And especially, for Alucard.

You're my religion, you're my reason to live
You are the heaven in my hell
We've been together for a long long time
And I just can't live without you
No matter what you do, I'm here for you

Alucard was the world to Integra, no, screw that. Alucard is still the world to Integra, but now he is all gone. That damned Major had finally gotten what he wanted. He wanted Alucard out of her life, out of everyone’s life. He had not only destroyed Vlad, the infamous Impeller, not just another weak vampire, not a great weapon or enemy, but he destroyed a great protection, an amazing friend, a person that Integra counted on for over a decade, her greatest love. The Hellsing family’s greatest achievement. Integra was finally fed up with all of it, finally done with all of the crap that she had to deal with every single miserable excuse for a day in her entire life since her father died. She was going to end it all. Her and Seras, were going to end it.

“Alucard…” Was whispered into the wind, the name still rolling off her tongue as tears clung to her eyelashes. So this was finally it, the final battle. This was going to go one way or another, but Integra was a strong woman, she could handle anything. Indeed, she could handle anything, but she will never forget this day. This day, when Alucard, the No-Life King, was defeated for the third time. Once by his own people, the second time by her grandfather, Abraham Van Helsing, and now… by the Major. That bastard, the nerve of him.

As she started walking towards the insane, repulsive Major, she looked over her shoulder, the scene behind her causing the tears that had been threatening to fall flood her face. A simple coin, lay on the ground, which marked the absence of another dear person in her life. Her vampire, her Alucard. But surely, she still had faith in her heart, she was strong-willed, she will never give up.

She stood up proudly, knowing that always in her heart, the people that she loved and cared for the most will remain till the end of time. Till the end that her life too, will end.

I don't wanna live in yesterday
Cross my heart until I die
Don't wanna know just what tomorrow may bring
Because today has just begun
No matter whatever else I've done
I'm here for you
I'm here for you
I'm here for you
I'm here for you

Authors note:

Yuh, sad little fanfic D:

Personally, I think Alucard will come back, as a human or a vampire.

And obviously, DIE MAJOR! DIEDIEDIE.

Mhm so yeh, reviews are always loved <3.

Psh, Hellsing is obviously not mine </3 .. Nor is Ozzy ~

Not everything in the fanfic is from Hellsing, I just made some of the things up, so yeh.